What do you wish for....

As I layed in bed trying to get motivated to move out of bed this morning I had a revelation to make a list. Personally there are so many things that I am wishing for right now....maybe some of you others can carry on and make your own list after you read mine of course =)

Anyways, Im going to make this list and update it when they come true over the next few months because I am determined to make everything happen!

1) A new job. Of course I will still help Dad out, but I need a constant paycheck if I want to have any kind of Real fun.
2) A nothing day with the boy. I want to lay around watch movies all day and just relax while being in his arms.
3)The most excellent birthday ever. 17 days and counting...
4)That the ex of his moves on and out already. Not mine, his. I do get to spend alot of time with him already but both of us want more.
5)Babies, or just one. I want kids, this is not going to happen over the next few months.
6)Get married, he talks about it....I fall in love with the idea of it and that's it...We're in love.
7)That I could get Tori Spelling to marry my sister this summer, she would LOVE it.
8) To cook in his kitchen
9)To spend time with his son. This little boy lights up my world, and I love it.
10)To join a class.....not school related, more like exersize related. Kick-Boxing anyone?

Thanks for reading, hopefully the things that I am wishing for will progress my attitude into something more positive, I have been rather negative lately...

Holiday Weekend

Memorial Day weekend is the perfect time to have a party, relax and drink outside just in time to bring in the summer rays. Every Memorial Day BBQ that I have ever attended has been so much fun and just kicks of the summer in a huge way. This year a lot has changed in so many good ways, and I have really started to grow up and realized that I can't control everything, sometimes life just has to get a little mixed up so we can find ourselves before we get lost in this crazy world. The new boy most defintely showed up yesterday, like I would have expected any less from him. This one, he is just phenominal, always surprises up his sleeve. The best was yesterday when I called him and he told me he was going to be leaving his house in a few minutes to drive the 40 minutes to the party, yea I was getting excited. Then 5 minutes later he arrives, and he thinks its just so cute when he does that to me. Ok well it is cute, and to others really annoying that I go all red-in-the-face crazy when he does it.
If you have ever fallen in love then you know exactly how great it feels to find that someone that just makes you udderly happy. For the first time in my life I am admitting that I have never felt the way that I do with him, ever. Seriously I thought that I was in love with Nick, but this new relationship feels soooo much better than any of the time that I wasted in my old relationship. I thought I had love all figured out years ago, guess it was just me being naive because the way that Bob makes me feel everytime I see or talk to him is just heart racing. I am ready to see where the future is going to take me, sooooo ready =)

Running away from the Past, and FAST

Life is good.
The new boy is amazing, (he just texted me the sweetest message....)
Where has he been all my life =)
Oh thats right I wasted 9 years on dumb fuck. My bad. Yea well everything happens for a reason and Im semi-ok with that.
Life without walls and barriers is pretty darn sweet and as much as I have learned to lOvE being SiNgLe, I just don't wanna be anymore. I feel like I should be further in my life right now but Im not and it sucks.
Took a mental health day from most everything in life and sat at the beach reading a book, I lOvE being 15 miles away from Chicago. It's not Wrightsville Beach in NC, but it will do for now. The peace and serenity of being alone and doing something for myself was phenominal.

I am Woman, Hear me roar!

The element of surprise has finally caught up!

Me and the Boy!

Me and Teri!

Best surprise yet!

Yes, that's right people....I graduated on Friday! I was so thrilled, and even through the long boring ceremony every minute of it was worth it! I only have one issue to address here, and that is the element of surprise! I ruin surprises or people ruin mine for me, they go hand in hand together and to be honest I think every time I am posed with a surprise I have already had some inclination to part of the details. Its a flaw of mine and a dooming one at that, especially for someone who always talks about spontaneity and its thrilling aspects!!

For the good part:
I WAS REALLY WITHOUT A DOUBT SURPRISED BY MY SISTER THE NIGHT OF MY GRADUATION! Most credit goes out to her for planning the most unexpected suprise of my life. My boy showed up for dinner and drinks at the restaurant after graduation and I had NO Fucking CLUE! I will give the love credit to him, for making my graduation something that I will remember for all time. He really picked me off my feet in shock! I'm definately falling for him more now than I thought before.....no guy has ever done something like that! It just meant more than I think he even knows....but that's ok I only told him a zillion times this weekend how special he made my day for me.

P.S. He got us a hotel and we spent the weekend in each others arms. I guess love could be in my not-so-distant future, because seriously I think I just might love this one =)
Not to leave out the most fantastic time we had BBQing at my sisters on Saturday night. He such a sweetie, and Im putting my whole self out there into the universe just to see where this relationship will take me =)

As the tide turns.

So yeah its been awhile, i know...
But damn have I been busy. Finishing school, working for the company and finding myself all over again. Just when I thought that it couldn't get any better it did, well of course after some minor mountains that I was dropped in front of to climb. I can honestly say that nearly 9 months after the brutal break-up my heart has finally started to mend. I always told myself that I was strong and that good things would come my way, but I guess I had one fatal flaw in my plan....I was trying too hard to get what I thought I wanted. See that beautiful picture down there...yup that's the 'boy' - well not really in age, he seven years older than me, but it just sounds cute and puts that gleaming smile on my face when I refer to him as that =)

I've known this guy for almost 2 years, and WoW - he has been part of many dreams. I don't even know what to say, its just that he is suspiciously perfect - but Im taking that for a ride and I don't know where it will lead me =)
I have always longed for something more from relationships but never knew what I really was looking for, if you get my drift. Then came him...his eyes light up the room and his smile gets me everytime. Oh, and I get butterflies in the pit of my stomach when i think of him. Who knows where this crazy journey will take me, but you will hear it first. I Promise =)

BTW - Crazy Ex (as he is now refered to in my phone) is moving on as well, THANK THE LORD! Maybe he will have less time to bother with what Im choosing to do in my life and focus on his, after all he fucked it all up. No blame on my shoulders, No regrets. It's the first kiss that means the most but when you can have that first kiss everytime you know what road needs to be burned and which road to follow. The 'Boy' and his kisses get me everytime, just like the very first that we shared =)