How to deal

If being sick day 1 of the new year has anything to say about the next 300 and some days, Im in trouble. Day 6 and I still have the pounding pressure in my head and the slightly stuffy nose. Im terrified to see how the rest of the year is going to go, ugh.

Through the crazyness of this cold/flu/something that is slowly killing me....I did have time to pick a resolution that I will work really hard at keeping. I quit smoking. Yup, I did it and its been exactly 130 hours and 35 minutes. Pretty great feat for me. Just one this year, keeping it simple in order to keep true to it, I fail miserably almost every year.

Im going though something right now, a state of confusion and nothing seems to clear the haze. Each day brings more confusion and I am fearing that I am making it that way.....
Nothing seems to be going, just right; It's all flying around hopelessly around my head driving me insane. Once and a while I will get the feeling that something is just right, and Im finally on the right path. In that same moment everything stops and it seems so wrong.
Someday I'll understand everything, someday when i have children....Im sure of it.