You need a life - Oh Make it a Venti

Some people just rattle my cage to the core. It disgusts me everyday - watching those peering eyes stare me down like they are undressing my mind. The constant words of overwhelming concern, or the look of disapproval makes me ill. That shadow-y figure creeping up behind me, I quickly glance back....it's gone, so tricky. You can't fool me I know you're there, I'll catch you just wait and fucking see.

So how many of them are out there, millions upon millions upon zillions! I'm quite sure they don't lead the perfect 'Brady' life so why dollop in mine. There are two things that I am well aware of by now, and I don't need someone to tell it to me. As a matter of fact I'll tell it to you....I'm not crazy I just want happiness to rain down on me.

1)I am NOT perfect, I make mistakes; sometimes I have bad judgement; sometimes I fall for the wrong guys; sometimes I regret the words that come out of my mouth; and even sometimes I feel like a failure. As I see it, if I didn't make the mistakes or the bad decisions where would I be, I'd be fucking clueless about life that's for goddamn sure. I'd be some sort of sheltered home body that thinks that everything out there is perfect and peachy. So that's okay with me, not being perfect and all, because it makes me who I am - not some clone trying to be someone else.

2)I am PERFECTLY happy just the way I am. So what if I want FWB, is it any of your business to tell me I can't. I just got out of a 9 year fucking relationship - yea I'm only 25- so since 16 I've been with one guy (don't get me wrong it was amazing while it lasted...) so is it too much for a girl to just want to have some fun? Bullshit stories and pretending that you care is too much for me, I wanted to be your friend not your over protected daughter. I also know that the one that I want has made it perfectly clear that he hates relationships, fine by me - you really think I'm head over heels ready for a relationship- Relationships take work, and I cannot fathom the idea of work right now, the less effort I have to put in the better it is for me. After all this is all about me, isn't it?

So to all you know-it-all's:
Take 2, no no no, Take 4 steps back and take a peek at the unnecessary drama that you are causing. Trust me I see both sides, I understand that people can care about me the way I care about myself. I just don't want the opinions flying around me like a tattered kite. Trust me if I'm in trouble, I'll ask for advice!!
Keep your mouths laced-your ideas grounded-and most of all your looks of disapproval to your self.
Friends are not poison, so why do I feel an uneasy sickness around you....are you the one who is slowly trying to kill me? Don't ruin a perfectly good thing with your ideas, friends don't let friends conspire against one another.

I do what I want!